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30 septembre undescribable feeling fought wiv him AGAIN... damn frust... kept teeling myself NOT TO ARGUE wiv him.. YET ARGHHH!!!! He made me HATE him so much.. i didnt want to do so.. i dunwan to hate anyone.. in fact, im crying now.. crying cz arguing wiv him.. he made me hate myself too cz cant able to control my own emotion.. my head is damn heavy now.. i wanted to cry out loud, yet i cant.. i cant let my family members know why i cried..
i just wish i could disappear or hide myself in d dark, n cry as much as i want to.. how i wish he could stop being like that to me.. how i wish i could stop giving hurtful remarks to him in order to defend myself.. how i wish v never started..
XXX, thanks for making me cry AGAIN.. THANKS a LOT... thanks for making me sucha defensive person.. thanks for making me being INDEPENDANT AGAIN [for i hav to drive back to BW ALONE ALL D WAY FROM KL..] thanks, dude.. thanks.. i'll NEVER EVER FORGET U IN MY LIFE!
happy birthday... Woke up real early today... [mind u, i woke up at 7.17am!!!] went to dad's room n greet him 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" yup.. it's my DA-DY's birthday 2day... wish him happy n healthy owz, n FOREVER YOUNG... hehe.. he's owz young in my heart leeer... n wish him "earn more $", den i can shop more d laa.. muahaha!
Now boiling 2 eggs [to b dyed wiv red dye] for him.. den later gonna cook 'char mee suah' for him d.. [for longevity]
Aiks.. cant blog more d.. gonna go out d... byebye..
lyrics wanted to post this LONG TIME AGO.. but d connection in college damn teruk laa.. so i post now la.. neway, i didnt translate it myself cz i duno 'mandarin'.. [paisei a..].. this were translated by CSiang.. [csiang, u're the "best".. uakaka~] just wanna share this lyrics wiv those eng educated ones... enjoy singing ya.. muahaha~
屋檐如悬崖风铃如沧海我等燕归来 Wu yan ru xuan ya feng ling ru chang hai wo deng yan gui lai Shi jian bei an pai yan yi chang yi wai ni qiao ran zhou kai Gu shi zai cheng wai nong wu shan bu kai kan bu qing dui bai Ni ting bu chu lai feng sheng bu chun zai shi wo zai gan kai Meng xing lai shi shui zai chuang tai ba jie ju da kai Na bao ru chan yi de wei lai jing bu qi shui lai chai Wo song ni li kai qian li zhi wai ni wu sheng hei bai Chen mo nian dai huo xu bu gai tai yao yuan de ai Wo song ni li kai tian ya zhi wai ni shi fou hai zai Qing sheng he lai sheng shi nan chai yong yi sheng qu deng dai wen lei sheng ru ling xun li hua bai zhi de yi hang qing tai tian zai shan zhi wai yu luo hua tai wo liang bing ban bai wen lei sheng ru ling xun li hua bai zhi de yi hang qing tai tian zai shan zhi wai yu luo hua tai wo deng ni lai yi shen shu li bai tou ming zhe chen ai ni wu xia de ai ni chong yu zhong lai shi hua le bei ai wo ling shi xian zai fu rong shui mian chai chuan xing ying you zai ni que bu hui lai bei xui yue fu gai ni shuo de hua kai guo qu cheng kong bai meng xing lai shi shui zai chuang tai ba jie ju da kai
那薄如蝉翼的未来经不起谁来拆 Na buo ru chan yi de wei lai jing bu qi shui lai chai Wo song ni li kai qian li zhi wai ni wu sheng hei bai Chen mo nian dai huo xu bu gai tai yao yuan de xiang ai Wo song ni li kai tian ya zhi wai ni shi fou hai zai Qing sheng he lai sheng shi nan chai yong yi sheng… Wo song ni li kai qian li zhi wai ni wu sheng hei bai Chen mo nian fai huo xu bu gai tai yao yuan de xiang ai Wo song ni li kai tian ya zhi wai ni shi fou hai zai Qing sheng he lai sheng shi nan chai yong yi sheng qu deng dai 17 septembre frusti was reminded again on how much 'anger' i had towards him..
now, THING REALLY wouldnt b d same again.. 16 septembre hmph.. It's getting 'SIEN' n more 'SIEN' nowadays... i felt kinda 'sien' on thursday, 'sien' on friday n very 'sien' today... Hopefully i wont get 'sien' tomorrow.. haha~ [in case u duno, sien means BORED]
Wel, didnt get to watch movie yesterday.. suddenly no1 wanna go.. kena ffk le.. So, after being ffk, i opened my FINANCIAL MATH book n read it.. yes, i WAS studying yesterday.. that's so NOT ME rite? haha~ Sleep at 2am..
WOKE UP AT 7.15am today for 'dimsum' session with Lillian n CS.. haha~ yup, just three of us.. d 3 crazy sleepy looking ppl woke up early in d morning went for dimsum at ss2.. [dey, usually v wake up at 10 like dat ok?] D dimsum costs rm40 leee.. kinda expensive compared to d dimsum in penang le.. but Lill said it's KL price maa.. hehe~ After 'dimsum-ing', went for a walk at d morning market there.. got LOTSA raw fishes, raw meat, veges, FOOD n FOOD n FOOD.. neway, it's all FOOD there.. jz some is edible, some isnt.. [nid to cook 1st ma] bought few stalks of orchids there.. what for? to beautify my room ma... Lill said, if u receive or buy flowers, u will feel happy.. Well, she's kinda correct - i did feel happy.. Then she bought 3 POTS OF FLOWERS at a nursery [not nursery for kids, is d nursery for plants laa] n guess what? it only costed her rm10! CHEAP lerrr.. she's sure damn happy now-cz she bought 3 POTS OF FLOWERS for such a GOOD PRICE.. haha!
ERM, d happiness cant last through d day.. i kinda organise a 'movie outing' AGAIN, called ppl up -asking them whether wanna go out for movie.. manatau, all dunwan.. D REASON? "lazy la", "wan study la", "no money la", "got appointment la", "got 'shu shi tan' gathering la", blah blah blah.. in short,d outing kena rejected again.. haih...
BUT LUCKILY, i did go out.. if not, i sure pekchek n kurung myself in d room til monday.. haha~ jz joking.. i nid to get out d room when nature call wert.. [toilet not attached to d room 1..] Ok, enough of craps.. Went to 1u, again with Lill n CS.. well, actually me n lill acc CS to 1u cz he got appointment wiv d Celebrity Fitness thingy.. Then me n Lill got lepak2 around 1u, shopping at Guardian lor.. haha~ Guardian got SALES ma, mar shopping there la.. u know, money is kinda tight.. haha~ Went 1u for 2hours like dat nia.. then went to SS2 [again] for our lunch [actually tea-time, cz it's 4++ in d afternoon d when v had our so called lunch].. Rain REAL HEAVILY at 5pm.. Duno which typoon hits PJ r.. rain til certain roads kena flooded d.. haha
Sent roommie to lrt st. at 6pm.. Then came back n start did wu liao stuff... dont ask me what i did la.. jz REAL wu liao stuf laa.. until i cant stand it then decided to online at CC... So, here m i now, checking friends' profiles in friendster, reading friends' blogs, chatting [actually kacau-ing ppl], n blogging n kacau-ing ppl again.. haha~ jz call me WU LIAO, im indeed wuliao, cz i hav ntg better thing to do... i cant study yet.. no mood.. maybe later la - after i felt guitly cz play/fool around TOO MUCH.. haha..
Aiks.. wanna continue kacau-ing ppl.. will blog more other days.. haha~ btw, im a FREQUENT BLOGGER now.. wee~~~
15 septembre happy, jolly me... im happy.. im ok.. im TOTALLY FINE d... im learning to b independant again... learning to do things on my own, not depends on him anymore... learning to adapt myself to SINGLE n AVAILABLE life again.. learning to b 'a real gurl' again, b 'si man' n stuff like dat.. learning to d life of not telephoning someone everyday [wah.. my hp stil got ALOT of credits!! wee~~~]
SOME things will never come back again.. might as well face it and lead a happier life then frowning n 'living' in the past.. Now i did feel better, despite abit of headache [due to lack of sleep!!!] AND im looking forward for a better tomorrow..
But, now im worrying bout my Financial Mathematics test!!! Next wednesday is my test n im still here, bloggin to kill time.. haha~ im SOOOOO LAZY nowadays.. dont know y.. I need my mum's endless lecture [a.k.a nag] to 'encourage' me to open my book n STUDY it.. haha! Mum o mum, y arent u here?
Well, gotta stop here now.. Gonna grab midnite show later.. Anyone wanna join us??
12 septembre breakdown z at 10pm last nite...den woke up at 1am to fetch my fren at kl sentral.. Her flight was delayed thus, she only reached LCCT around 12something.. n heard that d journey from LCCT to Kl sentral took 1hr n 15min.. haih... Then came back to college at about 2am..
Something triggered me to read d msg in my hp's inbox.. mayb cz i cant sleep.. THEN, i TER'read his msg... dont noe y tears started running down my cheeks...
I braved myself to msg him.. It started normally, den getting 'abnormal'.. YUP, i hav a breakdown.. I told him what i supposed to tell him 6 weeks ago.. Well, i didnt tell him EVERYTHING.. Jz a few.. He said that i was being impulsive.. Yeah right.. To him, i was being really nuisance i guess.. i wasnt thinking maturely right? i simply throw tantrums right?
Dont know y, after more than 6weeks of breaking up, ONLY i found the courage to tell him what's in my heart.. Indeed i felt better after bursting all out.. I didnt care what he thinks of me right now, i jz nid to get rid of this 'burden'.. I nid to let him know the truth..
I cried like hell last night.. When i wanna go to bathroom to wash my face, i cant really walk properly.. i felt dizzy.. It was as if i drank a dozen of beers or few glass of 40% alcoholic drinks.. I slept til 11am.. I have to skip two classes cz i cant wake up.. Even now while im typing this, my head is spinning.. Maybe it was d effects of heavy cries..
I wished i could blog 4am in d morning jz no.. i hav a LOT to say, a lot of untold stories in my heart; waiting to b told to everyone.. But now, i couldnt find the 'stories'.. not a single one... i wondered where's the untold stories been?
Maybe i sud blog "IT" out rather than confront him bout this.. Then things wont turn ugly.. Now, i guess, v should avoid each other for awhile..
p/s - thanks kucing for trying to cheer me up.. thanks weiloong for ur concern... i'll b alright.. dont worry... it's jz a matter of time..
8 septembre nostalgia.. Suddenly i found myself staring at the photo of me n him.. And the sticker photos that we used to take. "We looked so loving and sweet.." Yes, we were in d past, not now..
Why i looked at the stupid photos? Bcz i took out my photo album for my friend to see.. And i totally forgot that THAT photos were in the album.. And that stupid photos caused me to miss him... STUPID ME.. STOP MISSING BOUT HIM.. He doesnt want u.. FORGET HIM!!!
Yeah.. i should and will do so.. 4 septembre haih.. it's a very boring afternoon for me.. i suppose to study my Financial Math now, but im way too lazy to do so.. so, i online n chat thru msn instead.. haha~
a friend will come to visit me 2ml nite.. well, nid to bring that friend tour around d island... well, nid to plan well to ensure a smooth 'tour' for d friend.. haha..
lazy to blog d.. gonna stop here.. kakaka~
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