MERDEKA! MERDEKA! MERDEKA!!! Happy Independent Day to all Malaysians~~~ n Happy 49th Birthday to 'Tanah Melayu' [Not Malaysia cz Malaysia is formed on 16th September]

            Reached Butterworth this morning at 7.30++am.. D whole journey back to bw by train totally s*cks.. Not only i cant sleep well due to d white fluorescent light in the train that 'brighting' us d whole night [i was blinded few times]; BUT suffered from d 'noise pollution' contributed by a CRYING baby.. a HIGH PITCHED CRYING baby.. haih.. hav to keep telling myself "PATIENT IS VIRTUE" all the times to avoid cursing n badmouthed the baby.. haha~ BUT teoh d started to badmouth d baby after few cries n i hav to calm him down by telling him "PATIENT IS VIRTUE".. kaka!

            The first thing i did after reaching was looking for FOOD!!! haha~ i was hungry d whole night aldo i ate d RM3.30 EGG SANDWICH teoh bought for me from the ktm canteen... [blardy hell, it's so xpensive.. -.-" ] So, me, my dady n my mumi went for a 'DIM SUM' at Chaw Choon there.. It seems like forever since i had breakfast at 8AM.. d last time i had breakfast that early was on Lillian's bday.. [in fact, we had b/fast at 5am that day.. haha]

            Maybe my stomach wasnt ready for d incoming food that early or i ate something 'unclean', i had diarrhea right after my breakfast.. haih.. n caused my stomach to feel EMPTY again aldo i've taken food.. FOOD, i nid u......

            After 'breakfast-ing', went to granny's house at 12noon.. then to Pacific at 4something.. Bought a new pair or jeans... [yeah~] n FOOD [yippie!] n MOONCAKES [FOOD again.. yippie~] Im SO SURE that im goin to be FAT after my midsem break ends.. -.-"

            Oh well, i hav to stop here now.. not feeling well.. mum asked me to retreat early today.. hehe~ Will blog more when i got time le.. u know, my schedule is kinda TIGHT! muahaha~

 

p/s - chean ean... SORRY cherie, i cant attend ur sorta 'farewell' party.. haih... sad... ALL THE BEST in US.. take good care of urself k? n dont forget us, the (3+1) BIMBOs.. i'll be missing u, that's for sure... muakssss~

 

i only hav 10 minutes to blog... wanna go class at 5pm..

 

         Well, i did hav a great bday celebration last wednesday.. Umm.. not really dat great as i wanted to,but it was kinda ok [with 2 exams on my BIG day].. sigh~ Lillian, Tat, CSiang, n ZYang celebrated my bday at 12midnite.. CSiang bought a cheese cream sponge cake [i think] which is very creamy from AngelHouse/AngelBakery [forget d,i jz remember d word 'Angel' cz got part of my name [ANGELine] there ma...] After singing bday song, cutting cake, eating them, Tat n CSiang gave me a real good bday present by 'smear-ing' those creamy cheese cream onto my face.. [OMG, it's very OILY] -.-" Btw, it was fun, chasing them around the cafe and 'throwing' cream at them...

         I received LOTSA bday greets/sms[es] from my lovely friends... THANKS U GUYS 4 remembering my bday!!! a big kiss for u all... MUAKSSSS!!! i was really touched when i received a phone call from Peikei + Lisa.. Wow man, all d day from Aussie... so KAMTUNG..... [watery eyes... :p ] Thanks to Mike, YLiang for calling me to greet me happy birthday.. Sorry for not having enough time to talk to ya all.. paisei!!! Totally surprise to received a call from Daphne.. Didnt expect that call at all.. KAMTUNG again... Gurls n guys,

 

 

         That night, i didnt go out to celebrate [cz got 2 more tests d next day].. so i went down to d hall for SJ Night and enjoyed myself there.. Well, i enjoyed or sud i sae, SS way too much till i lost my voice n couldn't speak d next day.. haih.. Padan muka rite? keke.. 

         Now, let me talk bout d presents that i've received.. i got a cute DOG2 soft toy from my dearie coursemates... n they named them MAKEHAM LAW [after d name who invented d eq in LIFE CONTINGENCIES subj], another DOG soft toy [to be hang onto the car's window] from my rooomie.. a 'bday cake knife' from Lill, CSiang, Tat, ZYang [after cutting d cake, i found d knife is unique n nice, so dey decided to give me d KNIFE as my bday present.. -.-" ]

         Well, my time's up.. gotta stop here... wanna go class d.. [actually my class is at 6pm, but wanna go early abit..] Will blog more when i'm in b'worth... IM GOING BACK TO BW THIS WEDNESDAY NITE!!! YEAH~~~~

 

 

 

Im down with fever. Slight fever to be precise. Those tonnes of phlegm 'living' comfortably in my throat, causing me to lose appetite in food. Duh~ Yup, i didnt took my lunch yet, i'm starving and i'm suffering from dizziness and headache. i diarrhea for two days d. yet have to study nonstop for 4 exams. To make things worst, i nid or sud i say, HAVE TO attend algebra linear II class later. Means, no proper rest for me. Sigh~

           HOPEFULLY, i'll get better by tonight. i wouldnt want to be sick on my birthday nor suffer from throbbing pain in my head while doing exams 2ml...

           Have to stop here now. bye all.

 

Have u ever love someone too much till it become hatred? Or let your loved one walk away from u because u loves him/her too much? Well, I experienced these not once, but three times.

When I was with my 1^st ex, M, I was happily in love with him. I remembered that when I was with him, everything was so sweet. I was always cheerful and jovial. Maybe it was my first relationship that caused me felt so sugary. That time, he meant everything; my sun, my stars, my world. He gave me hope and excitement and happiness. Well, after 2 years and 3months of romance, we decided to end it. Why? Until now I still didn’t know why I agreed to end the relationship although I was still in love with him that time. Maybe I believe in this saying, “If he’s yours, he’ll come back to you.”

Somehow, the love became hatred. It became anger. I found myself no longer love him, but hate him, wondering why he treat me like that. After 3 months of break-up, he told me how much he missed me, blah blah blah. In short, he wanted me back. But then, I was mad at him. I deleted every message I received from him. I deleted all his mails, kept all the stuffs that he gave me in a box. And I didn’t talk to him at all for 2 years. Yes, it took me 2 years to ‘forgive’ him, to put away the hatred.

            After being ‘dumped’ by M, A who was my best friend that time, was like an angel sent from above. He cheered me up, made silly jokes just to make me laugh, always be there for me, accompanied me to wherever place I wanted to go. I indeed felt comfortable with him. He’s reliable; he gave me a sense of security. I know I can trust him with all my heart. One fine day he confessed to me. I was surprised but then I knew it was coming. But it was just 3 months after the break-up. “I wasn’t ready to commit yet,” I told him. He didn’t mind at all. All he wanted was to be with me. I was touched, thus I accepted him.

            We’re happily in love for a year, happily quarrelled for a year. The same problem kept cropping up. “You aren’t committed enough.” “Why you went out with guys?” “Are you happy mixing with other guys then me?” One word, he was jealous. True, after the first relationship, I wasn’t really committed in the second relationship. Maybe it was because I was afraid to get hurt again like the previous one. Maybe the first relationship failed because M thought I was happier in another guy’s company, ie. A’s company.

            A was more sensitive compared to M. He was easily hurt by my mere action. Undeniable, he loved me a lot. He placed me higher than anything else. He totally treated me like a queen. I was like on top of the world when I was with him. But then, sigh. Again, this relationship failed. I was dumped again. His jealousy overpowered his love for me. I hate him for this for I thought we’ll be together forever. He destroyed my vision with him.

            Somewhere in my life, someone crossed my path and showered me with lots of love and care. He was indeed different from the guys that I’ve known. He approached him in unusual manner, amused me in various ways; slowly lead me into his ‘evil’ trap that was to make me love him. How? By hating him. Yes, I totally loathed this guy. I quarrelled with this guy day and night; he made me want to vomit after each conversation with him. But somehow he made me adore him. But I know I’ll never be with him.

             All these 3 guys totally succeed in making me love them and hate them. All three of them made my heart bleed zillion times before. There are scars left by their hurtful action and remarks in my heart. Those long deep scars won’t disappear regardless of time factor [as people said time will heal the wound] and it will stay there until I die, I guess. Doubtlessly, I still love them; as they had been part of my life once. But looking back at those scars made me hate them. Each and every scars have its own stories to tell, yet as time passed, i've forgotten what and who cause of that particular scars.  

             Indeed, being with your loved one does give u a warm feeling, a happy and blissful look on your face, the excitement before going out to dates with him/her. You decided to go stick together, planned your whole life with him/her, to tolerate each other. But somehow after few years of togetherness, the chemistry/sparks that got you two together changed/lost. You didn’t look forward for each dates. You’ll late in replying his/her messages. You only call him/her when it’s really important. You rather spend time with your family/friends then him/her. You feel it’s sort of responsibility that you’ve spend some time together with him/her. What happened to the thrill, electrifying romance that you two had when you first started out?

My friend told me, don’t be with the guy because he treats you very good. Be with him for his unselfish love for you. Yes, I’ve meet them. So? They left me eventually. I mingle with other guys doesn’t mean that I don’t love them anymore. Is it really hard for me to find a guy who gives me undying love and at the same time didn’t ‘tie’ me up?  Sigh~

 

        Arghh.. im so bored over here... dunhv d 'heart' to study oso... jz hide in room, playing zuma + listening to mp3 whole afternoon.. sudhv go out wiv d incovar geng for a karaoke-ing session at the curve redbox!!! or go out for a movie wiv my fren.. -.-" i didnt study at all d whole afternoon.. better go out n have so fun.. den only i'll feel guilty n force myself to study.. wakaka~ 

        So here i am now, bloggin while chatting to "kucing"... the weather is like ok ler... kinda hazy, make d sky looks gloomy but it's actually hot.. imagine d hot air trap under d thick layer of dirt/smoke whatsoever stuff.. haih.. dying... my skin became very very dry recently.. been drinking LOTSA water n applying LOTSA body lotion nowadays.. haha! hmmm... y i suddenly talk bout d weather? ohya.. ppl said, when u hav ntg to talk about, it's best to talk bout d weather... 

        Ok, enough bout d weather... 4 frens of mine turn 21st 2day [19th Aug]... wanna wish them Happy Birthday here...

 

 

 

 

         Btw, for your information, there's a concert going on at Bukit Kiara tonite.. yup,it's d Force of Nature Quake Aid For Yogyakarta concert.. Got Disagree, Pop Shuvit, J Lo n etc2... But den im not going... No $ to buy d tix... if sum1 sponsor me,maybe i'll go ler.. haha!

         Gonna stop here... lazy to continue bloggin cz of d weather.. [yeah.. blame it on d weather! kaka!]

 

 

 

          Four friends, who hadn't seen each other in 30 years, reunited at a party. After several drinks, one of the men had to use the rest room. Those who remained talked about their kids. 
          The first guy said, "My son is my pride and joy. He started working at a successful company at the bottom of the barrel. He studied Economics and Business Administration and soon began to climb the corporate ladder and now he's the president of the company. He became so rich that he gave his best friend a top of the line Mercedes for his birthday." 
          The second guy said, "Darn, that's terrific! My son is also my pride and joy. He started working for a big airline, then went to flight school to become a pilot. Eventually he became a partner in the company, where he owns the majority of its assets. He's so rich that he gave his best friend a brand new jet for his birthday. 
          The third man said: "Well, that's terrific! My son studied in the best universities and became an engineer. Then he started his own construction company and is now a multimillionaire. He also gave away something very nice and expensive to his best friend for his birthday: A 30,000 square foot mansion."
          The three friends congratulated each other just as the fourth friend returned from the restroom and asked: "What are all the congratulations for?" 
          One of the three said: "We were talking about the pride we feel for the successes of our sons. What about your son?" The fourth man replied: "My son is gay and makes a living dancing as a stripper at a nightclub."  

          The three friends said: "What a shame...what a disappointment." The fourth man replied: "No, I'm not ashamed. He's my son and I love him. And he hasn't done too badly either. His birthday was two weeks ago, and he received a beautiful 30,000 square foot mansion, a brand new jet and a top of the line Mercedes from his three boyfriends."

 

 

- Received this joke from English Online Newsletter n i tot of posting it here so v'll hav a good laugh~ Well, people says, good things sud b shared among ur frens/peers/people... So, anyone wan share their $ wiv me? haha! -

im going to be 21-year-old this wednesday (23rd Aug) !!! aldo im looking forward to d day but den, i aint happy or excited bout it at all.. Why? cz :-

 

1. im getting older.. y i sud b so freakin happy bout it? T.T

2. i got 2 TESTS on my bday n another 2 TESTS after my bday... [bodoh puya! &#(^%*0@&*!!!]

3. im legally adult on wednesday [-->> more responsible -->> more prob -->> more headaches...]

4. i cant celebrate wiv my family... (sedih... cant 'watt' my parents treat at expensive restaurant)

5. i nid to study like hell in my room instead of celebrating on that day... T.T

 

Strange how human minds change.. u c, when i was young (13-15), i hope im 20++.. BUT when im reaching 21, i wish im 18 n below.. Well, i cant rewind the time back to when i was 18.. So, this year's bday wishes are...

 

1. Make my life as colourful n lively as possible..

2. Enjoy my life to d fullest as well as get good results (>3.7)

3. My family members in pink health...

4. World peace.. [hmm.. sounded like those contestants in Miss Beauty Pagent.. :p]

 

And the funny thing is, my coursemates ade celebrate my bday LAST SUNDAY... OMG! it was 10 days earlier.. -.-" i kept on shouting "it wasnt my bday today, it's too early" while dey sang the bday song.. -.-" Sedihnya.. But den, it's kinda ok.. cz i aje "wish" [i didnt know what to wish for oso..] n assumed dat i cut a normal cake, not a bday cake.. haha! I STIL WANT A BDAY CAKE ON THIS WEDNESDAY a.... so whoever had read this, pandai-pandai la.. :p

 

But den, i think nobody will celebrate wiv me cz it's test/exam week next wk.. sedihnya.. i guess i hav to sing d bday song myself... [haha..ala, buat kesian sikit... den only ppl wil celebrate wiv me a.. *grinning..]