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May 22 shifting house..well, now shifting house to blogspot since i ade found back my password... but den, i've forgotten all d html codes i learnt last time.. hav to RE-LEARN again.. *sob sob.. For new blogs pls go to huayphing.blogspot.com
May 12 me - best actress? I sud get d Oscar Best Actress Award for pulling such a GREAT SHOW yday nite. After d incident yday afternoon, i put myself back together, had a nice, long bath, drove to OldTown Kopitiam and smile when seeing them. I laughed n talked n mingled wiv everyone including him. I treat him as if v're never started at all, i was friendly with him - no cold or hostile as he said. I act as friendly as i would. Btw, i could see that he's quite surprised to see me coming to d gathering after undergoin 'breakdown' earlier yday.
Haih. Since he wants me to forget him, den i'll pretend to forget him til i really trully forget... I wil pretend n act as friendly as i can til i really forget bout our past and be really friends back.
To him,
you're stupid. real stupid. if u stil likes me but let me go, den u're really stupid indeed. but if u dunhav feeling for me anymore, den i wish u find ur own happiness. May 11 done.. talk
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*sniff sniff
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leaves
cries stopped
*relief
*smile
daughtry - homeLove this song.. Home.. Aih.. home is d nicest place to be. Especially when u're down.. Luv d lyric too.. haha..
I'm staring out into the night And trying to hide the pain I'm going to the place where love and feeling good don't ever cost a thing, And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain I'm going home to the place where I belong where your love has always been enough for me I'm running from you know I think you got me all wrong I don't regret this life I chose for me But these places and these faces are getting old So I'm going home The miles are getting longer it seems The closer I get to you.... babe I've not always been the best man and friend for you But your love remains true and I don't know why You always seem to give me another try I'm going home To the place where I belong Where your love has always been good enough for me I'm running from you know I think you got me all wrong I don't regret this life I chose for me But these places and these faces are getting old Be careful what you wish for cause you just might get it all you just might get it all and then some you dont want be careful what you wish for cause you just might get it all You just might get it all I'm going home to the place where I belong Where your love has always been enough for me And I'm running from.. you know I think you got me all wrong I don't regret this life I chose for me' But these places and these faces are getting old But these places and these faces are getting old I'm going home I'm going home he I really dun understand.. Been figuring out this for nights. At first, goin out wiv bunch of gals? Luckily he din as he dragged sumone along. BUT goin incovar camp? My, my, my... Last time, i sweet-talked him, begged him into accompanying me there. Know what he said? "Nah, not my thing. Not interested." THEN Y INTERESTED NOW? I dont stop u from learning dharma. I dont stop u from goin to this camp. Just i dun understand why the changes. Kong beggin me to be nice n treat him as if he's invisible there if i cant tahan him. I wanted to, but how - if it's bout 50 participants there nia? Haih.. Hopefully more ppl wil join incovar den i can really treat him as invisible guy.
Actually, i dunwan to treat him so. I dont treat him as if he's invisible. I dunwan b ill-wished, bad, nasty gal which owz complain or critise him or hostile or cold as he said of me. I wan to be like last time, be friend. Where everyone is gay n merry. Where laughter is all v have n shared. But very hard for me now. Very hard to me to laugh at his jokes. Very hard for me even to talk to him normally. I dont know y. I wanna confront him. I wanted to. But i sked i'll end up arguing with him if i do so. I dunwan argue with him anymore. My patient is very very thin when talking to him. Don't know y. I told munn n kong bout this. Bout all this. I told them that im very san fu inside. In pain. Unknowingly, i was crying when i told them. Haih...
Haih.. I begin my emo blog again. Haih.. Very bad. Not a good sign. -.-" May 09 crap blog #15 days have gone like that.. Wasted. Havent do something meaningful. Haih. Maybe sud find those orphanage/eldery homes n volunteer myself there. Or find classes like cooking class/bakery class/dance class/musical class/flower arranging class n learn new skill. Haha. Cant afford to waste my youth on watching tv/online games only right? Well, he - the tong sui lou, as u all called him, calls me everyday, every night. Wondering how much his phone bill will be this time. Since he's so sincere and determined, i guess i ought to give him another chance right? So, i told him, "if u managed to make me kamtung 8 times, den i'll accept u." Haha.. Evilkan i? Some of u might b says, "y susahkan him? if dun like, dun accept la.. dun purposely let ppl sia sui la." Yala.. i ade told him that - if he feels that this quest is too much, then stop courting me. It's not like i point a gun at his head, asking him to court me. *Chuckles. But he accepts it, saying it's challenging and will try his very best to kamtung me. HAHAHA.. We'll see what he's goin to do lo. :P Actually, if other guys managed to kamtung me more den 8x, i might consider that guy for his sincerity.. :P Ok, enough bout him la. Talk so much about him for what? Later all those kepos out there, msg me, asking me who's HIM plak. He macam become some sort of celebrity d. -.-" So, will not blog bout him unless he does significant things that urged me to blog, baru i blog k? haha.. Btw, mother's day is coming!!! Yeah.. What should i get for my mum? Ade din gip her b'day present [her bday last week] and felt kinda guilty bout it. BUT seriously don't know what to give cz whatever i buy for her, she'll say, "aiya, use my money to buy, nonid buy laa.. When u've start working baru buy." Already, she has figured out where to place her OGAWA massage chair and counting down the days when i can get her one. -.-" Since she ade stopped me from buying her present, i might as well do something meaningful for her. But what sud i do ler? Any suggestion? May 07 normal crap. :PAHH... so damn sien at home... been figuring out what to do at home besides watching tv n online jamming, chatting and blogging. Wanted to go out but den no $, how to lepak? Dun feel like doing part time job oso [desperate for $$$] cz wil be going to SARAWAK for holiday nxt week.. YEAH!! Been looking forward to visit that biggest state in M'sia for ages d. Now have d impulse to pack my things for the trip tim. Now, what to pack le.. Must pack nice, "kurang-kain" clothes there lo, who knows might bump into handsome bloke there.. *daydreaming... Been told by weiloong that his car was no more. "No more?" What he mean by "no more". Then he gave me his new blogsite n asked to have a look there. After reading his blog, i was like *gasped - O-K.. His car totally KEMEK. Cant b revived d. Masuk kilang potong d. LOL.. Sorry loong for laughing, but hey, look from the bright side! You can get urself a brand new car! Like d old chinese saying, if din buang old 1, how can d new 1 come? :P Yay, den u can tumpang me around kl wiv ur new car. So nice. haha! Nowadays, leang got pretty annoyed by me.. Why? 1st, I watched d TAK-YENG+TAK-KENG spidey3 before he does. 2nd, I kutuk his spidey3 kao kao after i watched. :P 3rd, I ade reach lvl40 in o2jam while he still stuck at lvl39. Wakaka~ So, i could feel that he wanna behead me den throw my head into d basketball net. But before he does that, surely he wan me to suffer 1st. And for sure he wanna drag me to cinema to accompany him watch that stupid spidey3 again which he ade mentioned in his blog. Want me undergo the TORTURE of watching spidey3 again. T.T Someone pls help me... I dunwan watch spidey3 again.. Someone pls acc him watch spidey3 kat batu... May 06 holiday plan.... Yeah... It's holiday season!!! 2 months of holidaying... muahaha... plan to utilise my holiday and use my break wholly instead of wasting time watching tv, online n daydreaming.. haha! So, i've made 10 resolution.. n here's what im gonna do.. [n hopefully wil stick to it.. :) ] 1. finish my newly-bought novels.. bought 5 novels. guess will finish reading all laaa.. muahaha 2. finish my cross-stitch that i started years ago.. [stil got alot to go.. i only stitched 20% nia.. T.T ] 3. learn sumthing that can slim me down.. - yoga, dancing, taichi, etc2 la.. 4. reduce fatty food intake!!! 5. blog more.. sorry, cant blog often cz cant online at college.. d wifi so sucky... haih.. 6. exercise more!!! must get slimmer!!! 7. sleep alot!!! sleep early and rise early! 8. drink plenty of water. my skin very2 dry nowadays.. haih... kering betui 9. learn foreign language thru "how-to-speak-yada-yada" book.. japanese/korean perhaps.. 10. take good care of myself n to return to uni as a pretty, fresh, young gal.. den i can kill guys d.. yeah.. killing spree.. muahaha! oklaa.. past my sleep hour d! *gasps!!! broke rule #7 d! nid to sleep now.. nitey nite~ |
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