... String of Hearts ...

well, now shifting house to blogspot since i ade found back my password... but den, i've forgotten all d html codes i learnt last time.. hav to RE-LEARN again.. *sob sob.. For new blogs pls go to huayphing.blogspot.com

 

                  I sud get d Oscar Best Actress Award for pulling such a GREAT SHOW yday nite. After d incident yday afternoon, i put myself back together, had a nice, long bath, drove to OldTown Kopitiam and smile when seeing them. I laughed n talked n mingled wiv everyone including him. I treat him as if v're never started at all, i was friendly with him - no cold or hostile as he said. I act as friendly as i would.  Btw, i could see that he's quite surprised to see me coming to d gathering after undergoin 'breakdown' earlier yday.  

                  Haih. Since he wants me to forget him, den i'll pretend to forget him til i really trully forget... I wil pretend n act as friendly as i can til i really forget bout our past and be really friends back.

 

To him,

       you're stupid. real stupid. if u stil likes me but let me go, den u're really stupid indeed. but if u dunhav feeling for me anymore, den i wish u find ur own happiness.  

 

                   talk

                   talk

                   talk

                   *cry

                   talk

                   talk

                   *cry

                   talk

                   argue

                   talk                    talk                    *cry

                   more tears

                   talk

                   talk

                   argue

                   *cry

                   talk

                   talk

                   talk

                   talk

                   *sniff sniff

                   talk

                   talk

                   talk

                   leaves 

                   cries stopped

                   *relief

                   *smile

 

 

 

Love this song.. Home.. Aih.. home is d nicest place to be. Especially when u're down.. Luv d lyric too.. haha..

 

I'm staring out into the night
And trying to hide the pain
I'm going to the place where love
and feeling good don't ever cost a thing,
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain
I'm going home to the place where I belong
where your love has always been enough for me
I'm running from you know I think you got me all wrong
I don't regret this life I chose for me
But these places and these faces are getting old
So I'm going home
The miles are getting longer it seems
The closer I get to you.... babe
I've not always been the best man and friend for you
But your love remains true and I don't know why
You always seem to give me another try
I'm going home
To the place where I belong
Where your love has always been good enough for me
I'm running from you know I think you got me all wrong
I don't regret this life I chose for me
But these places and these faces are getting old
Be careful what you wish for
cause you just might get it all
you just might get it all and then some you dont want
be careful what you wish for cause you just might get it all
You just might get it all

I'm going home to the place where I belong
Where your love has always been enough for me
And I'm running from.. you know I think you got me all wrong
I don't regret this life I chose for me'
But these places and these faces are getting old
But these places and these faces are getting old
I'm going home
I'm going home

                  I really dun understand.. Been figuring out this for nights. At first, goin out wiv bunch of gals? Luckily he din as he dragged sumone along. BUT goin incovar camp? My, my, my... Last time, i sweet-talked him, begged him into accompanying me there. Know what he said? "Nah, not my thing. Not interested." THEN Y INTERESTED NOW? I dont stop u from learning dharma. I dont stop u from goin to this camp. Just i dun understand why the changes. Kong beggin me to be nice n treat him as if he's invisible there if i cant tahan him. I wanted to, but how - if it's bout 50 participants there nia? Haih.. Hopefully more ppl wil join incovar den i can really treat him as invisible guy.

                  Actually, i dunwan to treat him so. I dont treat him as if he's invisible. I dunwan b ill-wished, bad, nasty gal which owz complain or critise him or hostile or cold as he said of me. I wan to be like last time, be friend. Where everyone is gay n merry. Where laughter is all v have n shared. But very hard for me now. Very hard to me to laugh at his jokes. Very hard for me even to talk to him normally. I dont know y. I wanna confront him. I wanted to. But i sked i'll end up arguing with him if i do so. I dunwan argue with him anymore. My patient is very very thin when talking to him. Don't know y. I told munn n kong bout this. Bout all this. I told them that im very san fu inside. In pain. Unknowingly, i was crying when i told them. Haih...

                 Haih.. I begin my emo blog again. Haih.. Very bad. Not a good sign. -.-"